[composed 11:40 pm]
Is loneliness a friend?It’s there to teach you something
It’s there to help you accept a concrete truth-
That whether you fear, love, or hate yourself.
You only have yourself
Loneliness takes the form of an unwanted and
uninvited guest that you don’t want to let in,
But it barges in without your knowledge nor permission
And stays for an unknown duration it decides upon
For you only realize it’s there when you come to recognize and feel it’s existence in your present reality
It teaches you the difference between
Being alone — and — being lonely
It amplifies with depression
And sometimes with it’s other friend, anxiety
Sometimes you look around when you feel it,
And the essence of time gets lost.
Seconds start feeling like years
Memories of pain that were locked away, and the key you thought you had tossed out,
Suddenly reappear right in front of you
And naturally you unlock that lock
And with it, you open folds of memories.
Some which bring about yearning,
Some pain, some angst,
And some just incomprehensible thoughts.