Depression Wanted to Steal my Will to Live

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Most importantly, I learned how to be myself — and not the self I think friends, family or society want me to be. Myself is actually pretty damn cool and has a lot to offer this world. This is why I am telling you this story — to let you know that if you’ve felt this way, you are so not alone. If you need to get treatment like this, you are not a failure. You are a human who has had a lot going on and who so deeply wants to get better.

In those last sessions, S teased out answers to how I’d take care of myself after leaving. “That sounds like a lot of maintenance,” she said, as we talked about accessing everything I’d learned to self-soothe and mitigate crises. I overheard someone say “it works if you work it,” what I learned to be an AA phrase — and I kept tracing those words in my journal ad nauseam.

Invisible Illness

We don't talk enough about mental health.

Theodora Blanchfield

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Freelance writer covering mental health and fitness. RYT-200 yoga teacher, RRCA run coach, and NASM-CPT https://theodorablanchfield.com

Invisible Illness

We don't talk enough about mental health.

Theodora Blanchfield

Written by

Freelance writer covering mental health and fitness. RYT-200 yoga teacher, RRCA run coach, and NASM-CPT https://theodorablanchfield.com

Invisible Illness

We don't talk enough about mental health.

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