Invisible Illness
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Invisible Illness

Grief Collided with Depression, and I’m Afraid

When life’s storms hit, grasping resilience is a high wire act

I am OK.
I will be OK.
This is sorrow.
It’s expectable.
I’m prepared.
It’s not depression.
It’s bad, but it’s not depression.
It’s really bad, but I will not get depressed.
I will not fall down again.
I won’t.
I can’t.
Oh God, I am…



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Martha Manning, Ph.D.

Dr. Martha Manning is a writer and clinical psychologist, author of Undercurrents and Chasing Grace. Depression sufferer. Mother. Growing older under protest.