Invisible Illness
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Invisible Illness

Kill Me Yourself, You Coward

A letter to my suicidal brain.

If only my handwriting was this good.
Photo by Debby Hudson on Unsplash

Dear brain,

Ever since I was 12, you’ve told me that I wasn’t worthy. That I wasn’t good enough. That I should kill myself. So, when I was 12, I sort of tried. They pulled me out of school for a while.

The doctor said I had depression and put me on some pills. It didn’t help. The voices got louder, more varied…

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We don't talk enough about mental health.

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Matthew Maniaci

Matthew Maniaci

Living with and talking about mental illness in an open, honest way to help break down stigma. I was one of those suicidal kids you read about. He/him/his.

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