OCD is Not Funny

God, I wish it was. I wish it were the way people think it is, that it is something that comes out and goes back away when you want it too. That way, I wouldn’t be typing this with hands that are so raw, I have trouble even holding a pen. That way, I wouldn’t be worried that when I emptied the dishwasher this evening, I did it correctly and no one in my family will die. Wouldn’t it be great if I could turn that off because my OCD didn’t come out today?