On Mental Health and the Mystery of Control

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*I wrote this essay two months ago, shortly before I left France because of the coronavirus.*

For as long as I can remember, my mental health has been hugely dependent on factors that are out of my control. Early winter darkness brings black, dreary moods; typical family drama instills exasperation and anxiety that last for days; and, most recently, graduating from college caused an…