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ROCD/Relationship Anxiety and Intuition
“When you’re in love, you just know.”
When it comes to romance, there is always this idea of intuition being the key factor in deciding how you feel about someone. When you’re in love, you just know. When you meet the right person, you’ll crave them and want to see them all the time. When you meet the wrong person, you’ll know that there’s no spark. You’re drawn to your lover like a magnet. Everything will feel right.
But what happens if your intuition doesn’t exist? What happens if your intuition is like a broken GPS, actively taking you away from where you really want to go? That’s what it feels like to me when I consider my feelings.
I’ve always had an issue with self-confidence and intuition. I thought it was only attributable to me just not knowing what I wanted in life. As a chronically indecisive person, it seemed like the most logical explanation. I couldn’t feel anything but anxiety about any outcome whenever I tried to look inwards to solve a problem or make a decision. It was like every decision I had about my own life was just choosing the lesser of two evils instead of chasing my dreams.
