Uncontrollable Anger Might Be Indicative of Underlying Mental Health Issues
I was recently forced to confront everything I had been suppressing when my fury frightened a loved one
If acquaintances outside my family heard I had an anger problem, they would probably be surprised. In my normal state, I am known as a calm and stable person. Well, I suffer from intense clinical depression and mood swings, so maybe stable is a stretch. But the calm part is true.
That does not mean I never get angry. To the contrary, I am one of the angriest people I know. I simply internalize a lot of it. Channel it through the novels I write or the paintings I make sometimes. Ninety percent of it goes unexpressed. You could even say I push it down.
But sooner or later, that pressure cooker needs to let off steam. I could count on one hand the number of times I have lost control, when I could not prevent the transition from anger to rage. While I was ashamed of myself every time, I never made any attempt to prevent such outbursts in the future.
Until two weeks ago. Until I scared the person I love the most.
