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Why Our Second Closest Companion In Life Is Courage
The first is fear
The thing that hijacked my momentum was fear.
I wanted to do it for at least a decade. Ten months ago, I finally laid out a creative development plan. Then, I put it on hold.
I told myself the hold was due to the five-month peak of the traumatic illness that suddenly added an undescribable layer of shattering, fear, and grief to my existence.
That was partially true.
I fought and got my illness under medical control. Then, over the next five months, I began rebuilding my body, mind, and spirit. During my reclamation of self, I continued my project’s pause status.
When I could work on it, I deferred to other things with more immediate but less fulfilling results. I convinced myself that my current outcomes were part of my process, that it was all good, and I was getting there.
Here I was in my mid-fifties and lying to myself. I knew it. My heart, mind, and spirit knew it.
Fear as a mindset
Fear incapacitates. Fear immobilizes.
Fear of something we want or must do is expected, but we must choose forward momentum despite it.
