Masculine Sadness

Living through loss

Alan Tegel
Jan 19 · 2 min read

Looking at the ground at my feet
Through the fingers on my hand
See the dirt around me
Since my translucent body deceives me

Winds blow around me
A shiver gets to my core
Darkness flows in and out
No light from within anymore

I see boys and girls laughing
I see men and women in love
I look down at my toes
I feel so numb and unloved

I see the boys playing
Raw masculine sparks full of flame
I see mine flicker and go out
It has been like this for so many days

Every day I fight to keep a positive view
I know this will pass
I continue to fight through the toxic dew
But I can barely go on

Self-love barely works
Loved ones I wish to connect with
I touch with no feel
I long to have my spark return

I wish to love fully and be pure
I avoid sharing the numbness
The darkness that pervades through my soul
I am neutralizing it every day
But I am getting tired and worn

No touch, no love, no peace
Just a man floating through life in pain
I take joy in giving others hope and pleasure;
I hope pleasure returns to me one day.

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Alan Tegel

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Lover of people, Texas Feminist Liberal Democrat, Horse Farm, High Tech Gadget ENFP Guy, and someone who appreciates the struggle of women and wants to help.

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Lover of people, Texas Feminist Liberal Democrat, Horse Farm, High Tech Gadget ENFP Guy, and someone who appreciates the struggle of women and wants to help.

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