I cannot live without breathing

I feel like I am under water. My senses are muffled and I cannot see the horizon. I am being pulled in too many directions and I am perpetually juggling.

Another month or two of this, at least, then I may be able to find some stability and relief to the tension. At least I am aware of my submersion and the unsustainable pressure that comes at this depth.

Many people operate at this level all of the time. They have grown gills or have decided that they do not need to breath. Submerse oneself beneath work, breathing can come later. Always later.

But I cannot live without seeing the horizon, without having my head above the water, without breathing.