Lenny Didn’t Die of AIDS

survivors guilt by proxy in the age of HIV

James Finn
Mar 8, 2019 · 6 min read
After the memorial service, we had mussels here at Cafe Bruxelles, since closed.

Suffering from a long illness.

I refused to do a funeral, though. Just wasn’t going to happen.

Suffering from a long illness.

My friends decorated the room I rented at the Center.

I also couldn’t explain the long-illness thing.

Lenny was born with a defective mitral valve in his heart.

I spent years not elucidating “suffering from a long illness.”

Sometimes I still feel that way.

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Writer. Runner. Marine. Airman. Former LGBTQ and HIV activist. Former ActUpNY and Queer Nation. Polyglot. Middle-aged, uppity faggot. jamesfinnwrites@gmail.com

James Finn - The Blog

Collected Writings. Stories and ramblings from a long-time LGBTQ thinker and activist.

James Finn

Written by

Writer. Runner. Marine. Airman. Former LGBTQ and HIV activist. Former ActUpNY and Queer Nation. Polyglot. Middle-aged, uppity faggot. jamesfinnwrites@gmail.com

James Finn - The Blog

Collected Writings. Stories and ramblings from a long-time LGBTQ thinker and activist.

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