#113 Island

You are not here
Not anymore
I can snore freely
No one kicks me
on the shin
I get into the car
No one has moved
those mirrors
When my music starts
No one complains
about distortion
If I listen to comedy in bed
No one gets upset
at me for laughing
If I wake up earlier
(I always do)
I can wake up without
fear of waking you up

But if I need closeness
I can’t reach out and hug you
And make you draw closer to me
And answer my question
with an “I still love you”
When I have a bad day
It just stays as a bad
or a worse day
You can’t comfort me
with a movie or a drink
When I need to see your eyes
I have to look for them
in memories and photos
If I want to hear your voice
Well, I’m starting to forget it

Do you remember when
You and I dreamt of an island
Far away from the whole world?
You said you wanted to have me
For you only and for no one else
Somehow I’ll dream of that island
Please be there
Those dreams are yours only
And no one else’s.