A River in the Desert
“Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.” — Isaiah 43:18–19
Wow, this was a refreshing verse to have sent to me early this morning. Remember not the former things.. the things of old. Yesterday I was struggling with forgiveness. This verse just sent a grenade straight into my selfish heart. It is as if the Bible is saying “those things are behind you. Today is a new day.” And in many ways I feel it today. A little lighter than the day before. I was able to work through yesterday’s issues yesterday, and start today new. Tomorrow I am 35 weeks pregnant. Although I am afraid to feel “in the clear” for having a healthy, alive baby at the end of the month, it does feel good to know that I made it through hell week. Christmas was a rough one this year. It was SO much fun in so many ways. The kids are at such a fun age and our Christmas celebrations were extended into the new year, but there was just a shadow over everything. Now that Christmas is over I feel like the next thing for which to look forward, is our coming baby. Now this terrifies me, but also excites me to my core. It makes me feel as though there really may be a way in the wilderness and a river in the desert. I am afraid to feel that and even more afraid to say it. What if I am wrong? What if it is another mirage? So then I recoil a bit, and fear starts to take control of me again. But that verse, it just gives me a little bit of hope. Perhaps just enough to make it into tomorrow. :) Thank you, Lord.