This Kind of Turned Into a Rabbit Trail…

But let all who take refuge in you rejoice; let them ever sing for joy, and spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may exult in you. For you bless the righteous O LORD; You cover him with favor as with a shield. — Psalm 5:11–12

As I sat here and read this verse I really really struggled with it. I don’t feel the Lord’s protection and I am scared to trust in it. Especially when I don’t fully understand it. Bad things happen. Lots of bad things. All of the time. To God’s people. But as I tried to find more insight to this verse and looked at the entire chapter in my Bible I noticed that this Psalm is a prayer. It is asking for the Lord’s protection. Not claiming it. We aren’t safe in this world. We are never guaranteed a safe or perfect life. But I suppose it isn’t wrong to ask for it.

I’ve heard people say that you should border line ask for trials in your life because that is what draws you closer to the Lord. I have had a really hard time with that. I’m not sure I have ever seen that in the Bible, but here I see at least one instance of prayer being used to ask for protection and blessing. There is enough bad to come. Why do I need to ask for more? And Why don’t I ask for more protection? I guess it goes back to my post on prayer. I don’t pray enough because I don’t believe enough or trust God enough.

But where is the line sometimes? Especially when it comes to raising your kids… when do you decide to trust the Lord and know that He knows best and He will protect your children if He wants them protected? And when do you go decide that some things are just foolish things to let them do (“No Susan, you can not go walk down the dark alley at midnight with your purse full of money to go shopping”)?

I so often want to just be knocked out so I don’t have to make any more decisions. Let me know when it is over.

These verses do however make a statement.

For you bless the righteous O LORD; You cover him with favor as with a shield.

I don’t often remember to feel blessed and covered. I focus very much on the hurt and pain, and not on the comfort I have been given through it. But I spend all of my time now, protecting against more hurt, instead of asking for protection from the one who actually can give it.

Is anyone else seeing a theme here? I guess prayer is coming up again… wow, I really didn’t know where I was going with this post.