There are two things shared in spiritual circle work. One is that everyone easily sees anothers’ issues but seldom see their own. No one likes being ‘fixed’ and usually people resent someone else trying to ‘fix’ them. Deep inside everyone knows they are okay. There is confusion because although the outsides may look jumbled each person instinctively knows they are okay and do not know how to resolve the conflicting information. No one is broken. If the oil light comes on in the car, the light is not broken. It is information. So you have two systems of information here. One is the system that tells you about the oil levels, and the other is what is happening within the engine itself. To understand how that works resolves the conflict.
The second pointer is to give people room to have their issues. They will deal with it in time. You also will deal with your issues in time.
Whether someone assists you or you do it yourself, it is necessary to connect to that part of yourself that is complete. That is the outcome of deep meditation. The same is true of deep prayer. It takes you to that place where there is restoration, and there is restoration because we access that place where all information is within. It is a kind of master program that can overwrite virus or corrupt programs. It sets things right. You see glimpses of this master program all the time. As a spiritual fitness it is being able to hold it in your emotional scope. First it is with effort and directed attention, and then it becomes about balancing it, easily, like riding a bike and then you let go.
You become separated from your truth through a deep form of self abandonment and a self judgement ensues. There are many reasons why you might abandon your inner kingdom, but when you do the self is not protected from being judged when it is abandoned. Biblically you leave the Garden of Eden and are cast into a harsh world. That harshness begins with a feeling of shame and a judgement as to why you betrayed your beautiful soul.
Being in this difficult place you then try to move around these unsettling feelings and you believe these feelings are true and so project it onto others in either an active or passive way. If you think you have been betrayed then you would need someone to take the role of the betrayer and would try to become the victim and work it out with another person. If you try to reject it, you may take the role of the betrayer and the projection would be on someone whom you would betray, someone who could become the thing you are rejecting in yourself. You would need someone to take on the feelings of loss because you would not be comfortable with your own feelings of loss. You will in time extend love and forgiveness to yourself either way.
As you first approach your issue it begins through an awareness of pain, fear or anger. Something is not right in your world. A lot of emotional triggers surround this place. When you start peeling back the layers you seem to fluctuate between one emotion and another each supported by justification and excuse. These are the defences of anger and fear, of aggression and passivity. This continues until finally you are able to look at judgement and move past it to embrace that part of yourself that you walked away from so long ago.
Many would say abandonment takes place in the physical world first and this is the cause of the issues. This is true from a physical standpoint but if you follow it back to a spiritual perspective you will see that even if the people around you had abandoned you, you would not have experienced it as abandonment because you would be connected to your truth. You would have known the loss was with the person in front of you. You see this in families where a child who seems impervious to the guilt, shame or anger that consumes other members. In this one area, the child has a strong connection to their truth and is never lost here.
You collapse where you are spiritually weak. This is the place of karma, or in the bible, sins. When Jesus said “Sin no more” he was saying do not do those actions and thoughts that brought about this illness. Illness is the result of karma and at its root is about abandonment which is dis-empowering of the self. It is stepping out of love. You are leaving the Garden of Eden when you take on the world or see an element of the world as having the power over you. When you are connected to your truth there is no fear and so no one can harm you unless for your reasons you allow it.
When Jesus was talking about the devil and the power of the devil, he was talking about how we, in these karmic moments, believe more in the power of the world than the power of the inner heaven. This was his talk about not being able to serve two masters. Spiritual work, the evolvement of your natural humanity is to move from living from fear into learning to live from love.
Originally published on October 13, 2019 at http://adeephumanity.com/2019/10/13/self-judgement/