Sad?
So am I…
I don’t know why I picked up my laptop.
Until ten minutes ago, I was just lying in bed feeling upset. I don’t even know why I was upset.
Every day feels almost the same; sad and slow, yet somehow fast. I woke up at 5:30 am, and now it’s already 5 pm. I have no idea where my day went. I didn’t sleep, I wasn’t busy working, or watching any show either.
What did I do then? Nothing.
I am just here. I don’t know what for.
I have spent the last few months, even years, trying to get out of this weird phase, but I simply can’t. Some days I am happy and cheery, but it usually doesn’t last long. Most days, I’m just sad.
Like many others struggling with feeling stuck in life and taking steps to move ahead; I too have tried to change my life with healthy habits, waking up early, going on walks, meditating, etc.
But I am still sad. I don’t know why.
It has become very difficult for me to put down my thoughts. I have picked up my pen and tried writing many times but never completed an article. I could hardly write more than a paragraph.
It’s a bout of depression or a session of anxiety, I don’t know. Living seems so pointless. I can’t see the beauty of life.
