Unwanted Talent is A Curse, He Said
Imagine that your dream is become a writer. You want to create so many masterpiece on literature fields. And then, you’ve got a high IQ. So many people believe that you’re a smart person.
If those aren’t promising enough, let’s add some spices. More than just having a big brain, you’re qualified to study abroad from your country toward Russia. Just for the sake of your idealism to be a writer, by attend a bachelor program on Russian literature in its own origin country.
At least, you should capable to be a good writer with all those conditions above, right? Tragically, that thought haunts Tokuno’o Tokumichi a.k.a Toku-toku (Nitoku), a Japanese underground fighter who keeps failed and failed again with his writing career.
“… More specifically, he’s a struggling novelist”.
Nitoku is a Japanese who born with very talented physique. So muscular and strong, that he was able to “…pitched out 150 kilometers per hour when he helped out the baseball team”. With that remarkable skill and potency on sport, he was only consider Baseball as only a hobby.
Oppositely, he’s a bibliophile who “aspired to join the world of literature” since his young age. But, his surrounding on school are very skeptical. Even went further as gave a hurtful comment like:
“You want to be a novelist? Better change your mind while you still can because you’re a terrible writer”.
It’s not Nitoku if he gave up so easily. Therefore, he tried. And, he tried. And tried, and tried, to put his best effort at writing at literature. Besides of his decision to do an exchange student to Russia (which mentioned above), Nitoku tried to write his own solo-novel. But, as you could see, the result was …
It’s a sort of comedy and tragedy. Nitoku has a very gifted body, but the only thing he hoped for is mastering a fictional writing. He looks dumb, but he really does know that we look him like that.
Is it his stupidity that leads him to abandoned his sportsmanship talent? Or, is it his honesty and tenacity that keep pushing him to write novels, even though he’ll fail and needs to win another fighting match again?
He’s desperately fighting for his writing career, literally though…
I’m a content writer by myself. I’ve been drowned in this so-called “intellectual or creativity work” since March 2020. Getting paid by engagement and empathy, but very-very low proportional income for the early phase on its career.
All of the years that I’ve spent on writing career helps me feel Nitoku’s pain. The idea of being a writer is not a wrong thing at all. Having a health and athletic body is neither a mistake.
It’s our society that more powerful than ourself; a mere individual is helpless against the whole society.
Nitoku is just a citizen in Japan. He’s just like us (wherever our nationality is), in the term of his helpless condition against the world. Neither a politician, a ministry, or whatever the job that gives Nitoku more power than “just” a muscular strength.
And, to be honest, Nitoku may resonate and represent our own life perfectly. Nitoku feels that his dream is very simple. But, he’s unable to make society become supportive with his simplistic-dream; become a good novelist, professionally and financially.
Oppositely, Nitoku uses what he hates most for the rest of his life, just to make him keep going on chasing his helpless dream.
Nitoku hates his muscular body, but his hatred makes him able to mastering a Russian martial art called Sambo. Just in a span of ten years, and it’s all started since his twenties. He hates his surrounding who keep forced him to abandoned his writing career, but the only thing he can do to keep going on writing is by joined the underground fighting.
Doesn’t Nitoku’s life sounds familiar with our real life? Either it comes from ourself or our surrounding, there are so many people who have a “fire-water” relation between their personal talents and dreams.
