Dear Mama

If you’ll all be so graceful to let me borrow a lifelong artistic idol’s title from one of his best well known songs.

Mom,

I need to start by making it a hundred percent clear I fully forgave you A long time before I ever half abruptly and rambling along as only Brewingtons can,for all the times throughout my childhood and life, where you wanted to be there as my mother, but couldn’t, no matter the form. It’s a bridge I tracked across for longer than I care to recall,but I got there.

I’m also sorry I didn’t have the information I do know to help me understand and forgive, in my mind mouth and heart. But I just couldn’t and didn’t.

I also apologize for the times you tried being my mother and I didn’t know how to make that work or feared what it may have looked like. But I didn’t know how to as a know it all kid. And for that I’m sorry but forgive myself out of necessity, like with you.

I mean come on, your my mom, and always will be.

What brings me peace is knowing you finally found it. it’s almost my belief we were there for eachother, when we needed eachother the most, in the exact way we did.

I’ll always Love You Mom, your boys just living the dream.