Again. Never. Again!

This had never happened before. Again? I guess it has, but not like this. I can’t look too disappointed, sympathetic face, show I want but don’t care. Why is it happening now? Does he not want to? Does she care? Am I not sexy right now? Of course she does! Of course I am! Stay cool, look disappointed, pretend you have no idea what’s going on. Maybe he’s just stressed. But I don’t know what’s going on. “Maybe you’re just stressed.” Yeah, that must be it. He’s stressed, but what about? But what about? He’s stressed now for sure. “Yeah, it’s probably just that.” Never before, it’s what they all say. She probably thinks I’m not attracted to her. Shit, I wanted more. Quick, do something to make up for it. Oh, so he’s kissing me, not really what I wanted. Make it seem normal. Why’s he pushing so much. I know this will do the trick, she tastes so good. It just doesn’t feel good anymore. “I’m, sorry, kissing you makes me horny, see.” It does? It does, but I’m still thinking too much. Doesn’t feel like it. Fuck, stop thinking about your own cock! Whatever. If she’d only …