Why I Am Giving Up On Romance This Winter
It feels like a box of illusions when I long for something real.
It’s going to be 6 months since I took a break from dating.
When I started online dating in 2019 after a painful break up, my only thought was to take my mind off from the heart break I was experiencing at that time.
I thought it would be fun and exciting meeting new people, and getting to know the world better. But actually dating is exhausting, time consuming and most of the time it feels like a second job.
After six months of complete dating break, my world probably looks the same from the outside. What’s different is how I’m experiencing my life now.
In the last few years, I’d had countless dates and a bunch of inconsequential flings, but I never found anyone with whom I really liked to spend my time with. It’s not like I have high standards.
But most of the guys I met kind of felt intimidated by me — sometime I am too ambitious for them or too feminist or too independent. My mind really goes what the f$%k what it means to be “too much”.
I have received comments like — “you are way too self-sufficient and it seems you don’t need anyone.” “You are way smarter than I am” or…
