Sometimes The Power of Now is the Power of TV

Baby Steps Through Some Depression with Apple TV Shows

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I did not expect my life to take this turn, at 44 but then again, I never expected it all of the other times. I always think every situation that feels good and makes me happy is also a safe and forever situation that I can trust. I mean, I suppose don’t we all but, for some people maybe it is — maybe they go hand in hand, maybe it all works out. Maybe it will still work out for me. I am in a limbo land of heartbreak and love, my friends.

I did not expect to be where I am now, or to have all of these new complicated feelings of hurt, pain, loss, and grief and mourning, and love and determination, and hope hope hope, all at once.

But as Forrest Gump would say, that’s all I have to say about that. I am tired of myself. Tired of this all. I am working on the Power of Now. Working on acceptance. I am in an apartment again, at age 44. Promises were made, things fell apart. They might fall back together again, as Marilyn would say, and hope for. As I hope for. But for now, this is a tiny little essay about Apple TV and how it is absolutely fabulous right now.

Great transition right? Thank you.

When I wake up with that heavy depressed feeling, I do what I can do to accept accept accept and reframe. And when it is all…