Initiation. It’s February 2005. I’ve been reading the Tao Te Ching. I’m in a van driving to New England. I’ve sold everything I owned with the intention of starting a new life.
Initiation. It’s August 2015. I’ve been reading the Welsh Merlin Poems. I’m next to a cave on a sacred hill in Scotland. I’ve embarked on a holy pilgrimage in an attempt to interweave the fibers of my heart with the fibers of the Earth.
Initiation. It’s November 2008. I’ve been reading The Invisibles. My perception is outside of space-time while my body lays in a bed next to a spiritual teacher. She’s holding my hand and helping to propel my consciousness to higher levels of awareness. Spirit guides have become visible and they’re telling me that this is my…
Initiation. It’s 2005 again. August. I’ve been reading Evasion. I’m in San Francisco. I’ve been intentionally homeless and penniless for 3 months and I’m telling an old friend who I’ve stumbled into that I can feel my mind expanding in real time and I’ve developed an awareness of what “God” means.
Initiation. It’s July 2003. I’ve been reading Ishmael. I’m weeping angrily on the phone, blaming my bandmates for not giving me the book sooner. I’m contemplating leaving the country to escape what I realize is a mental prison culture. I’m far from escaping though because this is only my first…
Initiation. It’s September 2016. I’ve been reading billboards in Thai that I don’t understand. I’m in Bangkok and I’m wearing a waistcoat and a tie. I don’t know it yet but in starting another new life, I’ve just made the first real step towards actualizing my teenage goal of finding freedom. I’m vaguely aware that freedom doesn’t exist in the physical world and that my real yearning for the past 13 years has been to liberate my mind.
Initiation. It’s June 2020. I’ve been reading everything. The world is falling apart but my mind is completely stable. I’m not sure if it’s adulthood in general or just my personal path but no one warned me as to how subtle your realizations would become. The world isn’t what thought it was, at age 9, 19, or 29. The war isn’t about good versus evil. It’s not even about individual versus culture. It’s about remaining an honest, open human in the face of the harsh realities of life. It’s about remaining untainted, even when you have been tainted. It’s about constantly reassessing and rediscovering who you are. It’s about being flexible and not clinging to fear. It’s about remaking yourself over and over and over. This is the meaning of…
About the Author
Justin K Prim is an American gem cutter and gemologist living and working in Bangkok, Thailand. He has travelled all over the world, studying various types of meditation techniques, psycho-spiritual healing therapies, as well as his trade skills of audio engineering and gemcutting. He is in the process of publishing two books, the first is about a spiritual quest through the UK to find the hidden heart of Merlin, and the second is about the worldwide history of gemstone faceting. He has explored careers in spiritual counseling and energy healing but now works as a Gemstone Faceting Instructor in Bangkok as well as writing articles, producing videos, and giving talks about gem cutting history.
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