Always be procrastinating
or how I used my fear of blogging to be the most productive I’ve ever been
As part of my precourse for Makers Academy we’re encouraged to start blogging. Unfortunately, I’m terrified of blogging, of posting on social media, of doing anything that puts my words out there permanently, on the internet for all of time. For some reason the thought of strangers thinking I’m a dick is deeply troubling to me.
So for the past 21 days every day I’ve planned to write a blog post. I’ve spent hours writing down ideas or even full posts and then scrapping them. I find it so uncomfortable I’ll do almost anything to avoid writing my blog. Here are some of the things I’ve done so as not to blog -
- Cooked breakfast
- Made smoothies
- Played drums very badly
- Cooked dinners for my girlfriend
- Spent about 50 hours each week doing my Makers precourse materials. Command Line and Git and Ruby. Felt more focussed than I have at any point in my life. Engaged with others in a similar situation and have helped and been helped without judgement. Doing far, far too many Codewars Kata. Doing flashcards with Anki
Not writing my blog has turned me into the productive human and focused learner I’ve been longing to be for years and years.
(or maybe, just maybe I just found something at Makers that I actually enjoy and challenges me and surrounds me with other driven, engaged interesting people from all over the world and that motivates me to do the things I need to do. Who knows? let’s just say a bit of both)
So how did I come to write this. I found something even more unpleasant then blogging. I’ve lost my headphones cable and refuse to buy a 3rd replacement cable in the past year. At the same time I hate hate hate looking for things.
So to write this blog all I needed was to come upon something I wanted to do even less.
Here’s to another 13 weeks of mainly not blogging and being incredibly productive.