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I’m not even sure what to say. We talk about how communication is important and although there might be mars vs venus mentality in how we think, I sincerely believe that I’ve tried my hardest to have an open conversation about this whole housing situation. I’ve tried to understand your point of view, find a resolution that would make you happy or at least comfortable, and all I feel i get in return are accusations of not listening and cheapness.
Difference of opinion — I don’t expect us to always agree on everything. Far from it actually. However, I do expect us to be able to openly communicate our respective opinions. You asked me what I thought we should do and I told you. Even then, I suggested looking everyday in hopes of finding something else and it was never confirmed as a good idea. After yesterday, I realized that what you wanted to hear was not my opinion, but that I agreed with yours.
Indecisiveness — In this whole ordeal, I’ve asked you many times specific questions and you manage to not answer it. I ask them to try to keep the discussion productive. Yet, you ask me the same question and I answer you. And then in the end, I get attacked for expressing my opinion.
Mars vs Venus — I realize that alot of times in these situations, guys generally just try to attack the problem head on and that might not work for girls. Even with that in mind, I tried to comfort you by telling you it’s temporary and maybe it will actually be ok and yes, even joking a little about your pride. Guess that didn’t work either.
Blanket statements — I resent the fact that you say things like “Things like this, I wonder if we’re a good match.” Didn’t know you were still debating that and if you’re still unsure, that’s probably a larger conversation.
Cheapness — I 100% resent this as well and it was probably the last straw. How could you call me cheap when I make $1316 a month currently post tax and still offer to live in a different place and pay more? It’s not like I said we have to live in Kenwood because I’m poor. That was such a slap in the face even after offering to use my savings to find a suitable place. For the record, there’s a difference between being cheap and being fiscally responsible.
I was so upset with you last night, I couldn’t even look at you. I truly hope that this is the lowest we ever go. Know that this is still my effort to try and get across how I feel to you. Know that even though this is how I feel, I am still sitting in a Starbucks waiting to see an apt that you might like. And know that this hurts all that much more because of how much I love you.