Is this it?

Annie Chang
Jul 21, 2017 · 2 min read

We normally have stories of why we love each other, tie it to one story or antidote, and call it day. This isn’t the case for today.

I don’t know when it began, but lately we have been fighting a lot. Usually me getting mad at you, few instances you getting mad at me.

I guess it goes the questions of: when did it begin, what caused these fights, how do we progressive from these instances? All artificial questions. I feel like we are in this hamster wheel, pushing the wheel day in, day out. We go out to dinner with other couples, workout together, call it a day and go to bed. The only real time we spend together is going wedding venue searching. I hate wedding venue searching. Is this what life is going to be like? House hunting, furniture shopping, or hunting/looking/seeking shit that I will end up hating in our spare time? Usually when you’re with the person you love, you’re supposed to be able to survive a miserable night on Mt. Shasta in the freezing cold, or sleeping in your car cause it died on the side of the road. I don’t get that feeling like we are surviving. I feel like we are drifting like you’re on the Bay Bridge and I am on the Golden Gate Bridge. We aren’t a team.

I am not writing this because we are in a fight. I am writing this because this is how I feel. Clearly our communication isn’t the best, so maybe this way might be an effective way to communicate.

I don’t like the way things are now. I hope you don’t like the way things are now. I hope we figure out how to change the way things are now.

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