A few months ago, I wrote an article titled “The One “Highlight I Will Not Forget” and, ever since, I have been mindful about what I choose to highlight. There’s a reason why certain words stick out more than others, there’s a purpose behind the resonance. I am not so concerned with putting a label on it, as I am with percolating it through, you’ve guessed it, not my mind, but my intuition. My mind may question it so much that the essence gets lost, whereas my intuition will guide my energy and focus towards the message and fill each and every one of my pores with understanding.
Days, weeks, months later, another highlight stood out in ways that I can not explain and the urge to write something in response to it became overwhelming. Today, LS spoke a truth that has become more and more apparent for me with each passing day: trust the timing of your life, the Divine time-frame (as she brilliantly worded it).
“You can set a deadline for yourself but spirit likely has you on a different time-frame. And nobody can put a time limit on any divine time-frame.” — LS
For the last months, my life has been in a constant state of uncertainty, career wise and personally. I questioned everything about my life, including Know Thyself (yep, leaving myself completely vulnerable here) and whether my work here is truly valuable. As editors (and I’m speaking for small publications as well), the time and effort that goes into editing, publishing and coming up with prompt ideas is never ending, as there is a constant influx of new writers and new articles being submitted all the time. I love what I do here and I love that Medium has made it possible to connect with so many souls from across the world, souls whom I’m now sharing my spiritual journey with.
But, even so, I questioned it. All along, my inner critic convinced me that what I was doing was simply “not enough”, not realizing I was actually actively building the foundation of a wonderful community of people who are on the same wavelength, who are willing to put in the same time, effort and passion into their writing and spiritual growth as I am. I didn’t think outside the limits I’ve placed on myself, didn’t see the bigger picture and didn’t even consider what KTHT could/can grow into.
I was in a constant panic mode and it really took its toll on my wellbeing. I struggled with craving security and not receiving it, with craving certainty and not experiencing it. I was stuck in between a money blockage, taking the first steps towards total independence, creating the Chakra journal and doing self hypnosis to change some unhelpful beliefs that were basically making it impossible for energy to flow freely and bring in the “a-ha” moments and understanding that was needed.
Although I set a deadline for myself to get my life back on track as quickly as possible, it simply did not happen. Why? Because as LS said, spirit had me on a different time-frame. How do I know that? Because the seeds I’ve been planting are beginning to develop into flowers, flowers that will soon be blooming. All I’ve had to do was to trust the process and put in the work, a work that I absolutely adore, a work that fills me up with joy, energy and gratitude, a work that allows me to be free and that is how I measure success!
I can not stress enough how significant this realization has been and how thankful I am to have been reminded about it through LS’s words. I’m sure, my friend, the Universe has had a hand in this. I’m listening, understanding & accepting!
If you’ve made it this far, thank you for your time & thank you for being part of KTHT and sharing your writing voice through it. I am eternally grateful and hopeful this journey will benefit you in ways you didn’t imagine possible. At the end of the day, that’s what self reflection & a bit of consistency can do. Remember, the day you plant the seed is not the day you eat the fruit.