Home Is Within You
Wherever you go
Enjoy life, be homesick no more…
Approaching a happy weekend away — a delightful sortie with a beloved friend — anxiety seeped into my world. I started to feel homesick days before leaving. Nerves tinged my downtime with empty echoes of grief.
Each time I’ve left our home, over the past two years, I’ve felt the same churning inside me. The days before departure fill up with dread, even for one night away.
Packing is a major deal, post-Michael’s translating.
What to take? What to leave? What to brace myself for? Every decision weighed me down. I put it off as long as I could.
This pattern has built momentum for months now. It was time to shift the energy around it.
Why was I feeling this way?
Such a natural question. It was easy to answer. My ‘vibrational mix’ on the topic hadn’t changed since being taken from my home by Michael’s diagnosis.
One minute I was watching TV with my darling, knowing that something was wrong. The next, Michael was being admitted to hospital and I was there, nursing him 24/7.
Living out of bags stowed in our hatchback in the hospital carpark for a month, with Michael’s dying to deal with made…
