Home Is Within You
Wherever you go
Enjoy life, be homesick no more…
Approaching a happy weekend away — a delightful sortie with a beloved friend — anxiety seeped into my world. I started to feel homesick days before leaving. Nerves tinged my downtime with empty echoes of grief.
Each time I’ve left our home, over the past two years, I’ve felt the same churning inside me. The days before departure fill up with dread, even for one night away.
Packing is a major deal, post-Michael’s translating.
What to take? What to leave? What to brace myself for? Every decision weighed me down. I put it off as long as I could.
This pattern has built momentum for months now. It was time to shift the energy around it.
Why was I feeling this way?
Such a natural question. It was easy to answer. My ‘vibrational mix’ on the topic hadn’t changed since being taken from my home by Michael’s diagnosis.
One minute I was watching TV with my darling, knowing that something was wrong. The next, Michael was being admitted to hospital and I was there, nursing him 24/7.
Living out of bags stowed in our hatchback in the hospital carpark for a month, with Michael’s dying to deal with made, What do I pack to survive this? into a terrible task.
No matter the reason for leaving home since those days, every departure has been dipped in dread.
What if something terrible happens? What if I can never come home?
That’s not the right question
Why am I feeling this way?
The question rose naturally and I was already sifting past stories for answers before asking my Dream Team to help me. That question led to so many others. All of them filled with foreboding.
Journaling to my Dream Team needed to come before packing this time around. It was time to change my perspective.
As ever, the impact was profound. It didn’t take long for my team to bring me round.
Why am I feeling this way? I put the question to my team.
That’s not the right question to ask, their immediate reply.
Our conversation continued, along these lines:
I know. The story is irrelevant. I know.
And it will bring more stories just like it.
I know.
It’s ok, Amanda.
It’s ok to start where you are.
But don’t spend too long on the story that created this. Get to the heart of it instead.
Then you can move towards what this contrast has created.
Ask the right question to take you there faster.
Ok, so what’s the right question?
What emotions are REALLY driving this?
That’s the question you want to answer.
Hmmm. Yes. It’s about being lost and alone. Needing and being without…
It’s about being without comfort, losing forever the soothing of here. I’m clinging to this place, where Michael’s touch is easy to see all around me.
Going away — even for one night — it feels like being wrenched away from my reassurance, my strength, my safety… It feels like separation from my lifeline, like I have to take a huge, deep breath, to last til I return home.
Good. That’s taking you to find your Inner Being.
Now, ask yourself this.
Was it your home that brought you answers time and time again, even in the heart of your pain?
Was it the objects of comfort giving you the exact insights you asked for, in the perfect unfolding you wanted?
Was it the pictures, the ornaments, the love-letters you cherish?
Did they guide you intimately, brilliantly, surely, from the depths of your grief, into wall-to-wall smiling?
No!
It wasn’t any of those things.
You’re right.
It wasn’t my home that brought me relief.
It was You.
It was this dialogue.
Written, spoken…
Your words.
Your reassurances.
Your brilliance brought me Home.
Every time.
Home.
Home to myself.
Home to the Love at my core.
Every time.
It was You!
There you go.
And have we ever deserted you?
Have you ever once called for help and found there was no reply?
No. Not once, ever. No.
And were you able to come Home, even when you were away from this physical place you adore?
Even at Michael’s hospital bedside? Were you able to come Home, even from there?
Yes. I was. It took focus, I had to make space to connect with You. But You always brought me Home. Always. No matter where I was.
There you go. You are Home, Amanda, always.
We are always here, guiding you Home. You have only to ask and you will receive. There truly is nothing you need.
Home is within you, wherever you go.
Isn’t that wonderful to know?
It really, really is! Thank you!
Now, ramp up the truth of your being
Time to ramp up the truth of your being.
Talk to us now of the way you love to be.
An alphabet of states might be a nice way to build this.
Great idea. Thank you!
I love allowing your brilliance and clarity! I love to be deliberate, eager and focused. I love giving my problems to You. I love being at Home with You, always.
I love being inspired towards ever more joy.
I love knowing what I know! I love being in Love with You, I love being ManaMoo — Michael’s nickname and mine make for delight! I love this moment now, with no need, ever.
I love opening to pure, positive power pulsing through… I love being quiet and reaching for strength from my source. I love telling new stories, with deep understanding.
I love Your vibrance and vision; I love the waves of kisses you send me, xxx!
I love YOU!
Zippity do da day!
That feels amazing! I can’t wait to go pack!
Remember, we are with you Amanda. With you, always.
Your delight is our doing!
Our — meaning yours and ours, inseparable and one. As you ask, it is given. We become your heart’s desires. We call you Home to your fullest self’s expression.
We call you Home to your SELF.
Source,
Expressing
Love in
Form
That’s the truth of your being Amanda.
Source, Expressing Love in Form.
We will always bring you Home to yourSELF.
Always, always, always.
You can never be where we are not.
You can never lose sight of our love.
We are the breath that breathes you.
We are one with you, always and all ways.
Enjoy life.
Be homesick no more.
Are you making the most of your Dream Team yet?
If you haven’t tried journaling to your Dream Team yet, maybe it’s time to give it a try. I couldn’t have predicted the power of these conversations. Imagining a team of pure, unconditional love, guiding me Home, always.
This dialogue blows me away with its daily inspiration.
All the love, all the reassurance, all the encouragement we need: it’s all right here inside us, if we but ask to receive it.
Acknowledgement: My blogs, my coaching and my life are founded on many wondrous teachings, most particularly those of Abraham-Hicks
