How Canceling an Event Helped Me Heal Invisible Childhood Conditioning

And I wasn’t even “sick or dying”

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On the fence

“We paid for it. We’re going.”

These words are spoken by a deep, authoritarian voice that lives in my head. The voice belongs to my dad from the years of my upbringing. This voice says, “Unless you’re sick or dying…