I Am Scared; A Part of Me Is Dying
The Pain of Change, Will I Survive?
With every passing day, every moment, and everything going on around me, there are times when my mind goes blank, and the same thought returns: that a part of me is dying, and I can do nothing about it.
I thought it would be easy, that almost every woman goes through this at some point in her life. It shouldn’t be that difficult, yet I am feeling all the pain, and every step of this process is slow and painful.
It feels like a slow death, though I know I will be reborn.
There are only a few months left before the big day, and my overthinking mind and anxiety are at their peak. I just don’t have the right words to express how I feel, to tell my family that I will miss them so much, to shout to the whole world that everything around me is going to change. Nothing will remain the same. It is all going to change.
I am getting married in a few months, and everything in my world will change. Soon, I will be spending time with people other than those I used to. All the 26 years of my life have been spent almost entirely with my father, mother, and brother. Just thinking that this is going to change and that the people I will spend more time with will also be different scares me.
