If You Want Change, You Have To Invite Chaos

Diana C.
Diana C.
Apr 17, 2020 · 2 min read
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April 17th, 2020:

If you want change, you have to invite chaos. Make it your foe if you will and join the dialogue, bringing your emotions into it. You ought to cover the noise of chaos with your loud anger and frustration. Prove you know better. Scream, kick, cry…

But when you’re done, listen to it. Listen to what its teaching you about yourself, revealing parts of you that you were not aware of. How uncomfortable are you with chaos shedding a light on those corners of your mind that were deeply hidden before? How uncomfortable are you with feeling uncomfortable and how far are you willing to go to avoid experiencing it?

Now let’s imagine what happens once you decide to move to a different address, one where you live outside your comfort zone, where you and chaos are learning to tie a close friendship. Where your first instinct is to shut it out when things get challenging, but instead, you bring it closer and give it a cuddle. When your first impulse is to walk away from this friendship, but you choose to stay. When you desperately want to point fingers at it for being the bad guy, but you see it as a spiritual master instead. When you want to break it, but you hold its hand tighter, as you whisper:

“My beloved chaos, you’re so chaotic. You bring madness into my life when all I want is peace. You force me to face my fears, when all I desire is to convince myself they don’t even exist. You let me deal with everything on my own, wishing me more pain than I’ve experienced before. You make my doubts come like monsters, eating at my confidence. Thank you! You’re the best friend I’ve ever had. The realest, the truest, the strongest.”

Here’s a song that profoundly, yet simply explains why pain is necessary. Let those lyrics sink in…

Know Thyself, Heal Thyself

𝘉𝘰𝘥𝘺, 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥 & 𝘴𝘱𝘪𝘳𝘪𝘵

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