If You’re Healing, You’re Living
Embracing Growth as a Lifelong Journey
I thought healing was like hitting a reset button — quick, efficient, and maybe even magical. Two weeks, perhaps a month, and I’d be done. But healing doesn’t work like that. It moves at its own pace, sometimes slower than you’d like.
When I first began therapy, I would show up with boundless energy, eagerly asking my therapist about a “new challenge.” I was convinced I’d outpace my past as long as I moved forward. But then, one day, she hit me with a question that brought everything to a screeching halt: “What do you think will happen once your momentum stops?”
I stared and asked her, “What do you mean? I won’t slow down. I can’t. I’ve been doing so well that if I had any setbacks, I would feel like I failed.” It was then that I realized that the true healing began. That month was just a buffer.
My therapist was getting to know me, and I was starting to know her. As the weeks passed, the “mask” I wore — the polished, eager version of myself — began to fade. My therapist created space for me to sit in silence, giving me room to process my own words. In those quiet moments, I began to see healing wasn’t about speed but depth.
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