It’s Me, I’m The Problem
A character flaw I hope to improve with time
I have a lot of questions and only a few answers or none at all.
One of my bad habits as a certified people-pleaser is keeping my mouth shut. I avoid confrontation at all costs. I wouldn’t say I like the yelling and the back-and-forth. The overstimulation drains me and my spirit. So what do I do?
I shut up and keep quiet.
I would rather deal with my concerns internally and move on. My therapist now asks, “Does that help you?”
The answer will also be no; it never has and never will. So, I let things fester. I’ve always been the go-along-to-get-along type of person, and at times, it’s hard for me to pick a side because, again, in true people-pleasing fashion, I want everyone to enjoy each other and have a great time.
Looking back at my last place of employment, I’ve let many things slide. If I didn’t see it, it didn’t happen, right? Wrong. I did see it and knew my reaction after seeing it. Instead, I let things fester, bubble, and ooze from my pores. This internalizing can create hate, resentment, and anger.
Here is the problem I blame myself for:
- Not speaking up when it happened