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Spaciousness
Nothing to do. Nowhere to be. Noone to become.
I don’t want to forget this feeling. As of two days ago, I no longer have a fulltime job. My daughter went back to college last week and my partner is out of town with our dog. My schedule is open and my house is empty. It is profound and amazing. This may be the first time in my life that I’ve been aware and present enough to truly appreciate the space I am in. For the decades that I taught yoga, during final Savasana, I would often encourage the students to rest in stillness. “Nothing to do. Nowhere to be. Noone to become,” I’d say to them, never acknowledging how I myself was light years away from understanding what that felt like.
I’ve experienced circumstances similar to where I am now in my younger life. I have been between jobs with an empty house before, but something about this time feels different. When I lived in Spain I learned a toast — “Salud, Dinero, Amor y El Tiempo para gozarlos.” Raising your glass in the sign of the cross you toast to health, wealth, love and the time to enjoy it all.
I am a lucky person. I am healthy, financially stable, surrounded by abundant love, and I have the time to enjoy it all. For this quote to aptly apply to how I feel at this moment in my life, I would slightly change it. Instead of “the time to enjoy it all,” I’d say, “the wisdom to enjoy it…
