The Pain of Being Ignored
And how I am dealing with it
Not being wanted was one of the biggest pains I had since I was 3 weeks old.
The feeling of being ignored (at times) by people in my Tango community ate at my confidence taking out the piece I needed to love myself.
I felt shunned, alone, unwanted and unattractive.
‘What is wrong with me?’ I would ask myself over and over again.
I am always making sure that I am friendly and kind.
I take people as they are. And people tell me that I am a nice dancer.
I just couldn’t understand what I had done wrong!
As soon as I saw that somebody who had danced with me before didn’t want to make eye contact, I made that mean that there was something wrong with me and that I was not good enough.
This sabotaging belief was the second biggest inner pain I carried for most of my life that misled me a thousand times into believing I could never make it to whatever I wanted to achieve.
It was so ingrained in me that I couldn’t separate from it.
That was the problem!
I knew it wasn’t true. It was just an incorrect assumption but it caused so much pain!!
