The day she said yes

Today, nothing has changed yet something intagible has. Today, the first day of 2015, I woke up having the certitude in my heart that every star in the sky , every human on planet, every song, sound, airplane, was set perfectly into place the day I met the man who is today my husband.

It’s funny how sometimes it takes stepping outside of our self, looking back on our past, then realizing how lucky we were to be exactly where we were one random day. On the way, we lose sight of that feeling of gratitude, we get caught up on ego, circumstances, wrong priorities, and some, lose the love of their life doing that, but only realize it when it’s too late.

I am lucky I stepped outside of myself only a few months after we met, I learned early in my life to trust my instincts, my whole being was telling me that the world conspired to make that meeting happen, one very out of the blue meeting, almost impossible.

Sometimes ego speaks louder than your heart, but that’s when you need to step outside of yourself and reflect, our life’s biggest decisions are made in those fractions of seconds where the ego fights with the Instinct: I learned to distinguish whose speaking to me, my ego or my instinct, then I tell myself “hello ego, goodbye ego.” ,I reflect and I act accordingly.

After one year of breathing his thoughts, drinking his thoughts, loving his thoughts…a year of building branches intertwined between my firm tree and his, we learned to grow in a healthy solitude yet together: I am familiar with his most intimate world, and he knows mine, he takes walks down my deepest thoughts and I let him gladly open doors and learn about my every scar, also my every smile. Today our love has built a kingdom between his soul and mine: what we thought was distance between us or solitude, has grown into a garden that we catered for ourselves, with blood sweat and tears, laughter joy and smiles: we were decicated to our garden because we knew it would lead us where it did today.

But it also hit me how much work that was, how catering for your garden can only happen if you don’t put your boss above of your garden, or your ego above everything else, we learned to be humble, love taught us that, we learned to say “no, sorry, I don’t have time for that”, without feeling guilty, just to cater for our garden. We learned to say “you hurt me, let’s fight, but we’ll figure it out”, we learned that we are the only permanent thing in our changing worlds, our branches hold on to one another stronger than an atom to its energy, and as everything changes in our lives, we know we are the only thing that can’t and won’t change, because holy relationships are from God, and God can only be everlasting, so is the love he put within us.

Today, people see us and ask “how did it get so beautiful?”, “how is it that easy?”; but easy isn’t what it is, and it isn’t why we’re together, we are together because it can be hard, because we chose to, not because it’s convinient.

In this blog, we’ll talk about our journey, and how two beings living infinite solitudes can cater for a shared heavenly garden that’ll keep their holy love burning for life.