Change your thoughts, change your mood
Last night I nearly died!
I was stewing in my funky juices soaking in a bath … thinking the bath would change my mood
I grumped out of the bath … grumbling as I picked the wet hand towel off the floor, tossing it over the edge of the bath.
I was frumping on the bath mat too far from my bath towel that my T-Rex arms couldn’t reach from my standing spot.
I was stuck in the quicksand of a day’s worth of regret, guilt, shame, resentment with a big dollop of ‘not fair’ & ‘I’ll never get’… a day of picking at a scab from the past and rubbing salt in it for good measure.
It’s been a while since I slipped into such self-reproach & it didn’t feel good at all … bloody, not fair!
So, stuck on my bath mat, refusing to move my whole arse to my towel — the focus of my desire … I carelessly put my foot on the side of the bath to reach over and try & yank my towel off the hook on the back of the door
Remember that wet hand towel I irritatedly slung on the side of the bath as if it were the greatest offense to me of all time.
Yes! I think you can see where this is going…
In a matter of microseconds, I was lurching forward with the hand towel sliding into the bath & my other leg on the bath mat sliding in the opposite direction, while I valiantly tried to cling to the towel sliding off the hook on the back of the door.
Pause this scene … & rewind to the months & months of shifting my focus back to my Divine Feminine Crone Wisdom, calling in Source, my Spirit tribe, Buddhas, Yoginis, Dakinis & High Vibe karmic beings (some who may have been blood relatives in this life).
Strengthening my connection to the energetic truth of my existence, co-creating at metaphysical quantum levels beyond my limited intellectual or material awareness.
Basically been focused on turbocharging my experience so that I can readily realign if I slip into an illusory funk of thinking
UNPAUSE⏭
So I am mid-air spread-eagled and suddenly calm took over…
I watched myself be shifted sideways so that as I began to land on the terrazzo marble floor I saw the bathroom sink graze past my left ear rather than catch the back of my head as would have been the original trajectory.
Instead of hitting the marble floor at full force on my back and striking my head on the floor — as would have been the typical outcome…
I felt myself slowly & gently laid across the floor like a yoga back roll with my head cradled off the ground the whole time.
My arm that I put out to stop the fall, never actually touched the ground to brace the impact.
I lay on the cold floor naked replaying the geometry of the fall & knowing to my core that a whole tribe of high vibe protective beings were with me at that moment.. not as an intellectual belief but felt like a core wisdom certainty. A certainty not perceived in the 3 previous near-death experiences over the years.
I lay on the floor naked enveloped by numerous epiphanies
1. I am protected on levels where energy & material form converge
2. I saw the stark futility of my thought-created suffering by replaying the past in my present moment thinking. I am the only cause of my suffering
3. So much is working in my favour beyond what I dare to imagine
4. If my Spirit tribe can save me from certain death then I am totally supported in getting ALL that my higher being wants
I also thought that maybe I don’t actually want to die alone naked on the bathroom floor, not in reach of my mobile, so maybe I get myself an Alexa to call to help.
My wise women over 40 ( Sacred Crones)
I promise you … any & all of your crumby thinking that feels so real & truly looks like a problem needing fixing in order to be happy; it’s all illusion of self-created suffering.
