scream with me, my love
this is not something that just stops
it does not come to rest
a paperweight sitting idle on an unused desk
the energy must go somewhere
must it not
darling
your face appears in my mind
i smile
still drawing energetic inspiration from our connection
though you have gone
this is not something that just stops
i reach for a pen
to write words that cannot possibly contain the immensity
of this
of you
of us
and i want more
i want us
together
when i know who i am
when i remember who we were
to each other
would you at least scream with me
my love
stand with me
under a star-filled sky while the chill of autumn takes our breath
in her cold hands
and makes our exhalations visible
at last
visible
scream with me
my love
for what they did to us
for what i did to you
for my brain that clamped down
do you know that you were the only person who knew
what she told me
the only person who knew my true birth story
and it is unforgivable
though psychologically explainable
for my brain to block you
but to love you again
unknowingly
i swear
my darling
the gods are having quite the laugh with you and me
so scream with me
my love
under a star-filled sky
while the chill of autumn takes our breath
in her cold hands
and makes our exhalations visible
at last
