Thoughtful Love/ 你要一直相信你很好
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1. 中文文章
2. English Story- 中文文章
這一陣子沒什麼生活靈感更新 Life in the UK，而新主題 Study Abroad 已有幾篇文章的想法，但還得等我親自去體驗才可以化為經驗分享。於是，一直很想建立的新主題: Thoughtful Love 就在今天誕生了。
你很好，而且你一直要相信你很好。
在每一個批判自己而獨自流淚的夜晚，想著明天睜開眼睛又得面對生活大大小小的壓力，好多個做不完的任務、也有好多個思考不出結果的人生困境…一層一層的堆疊在我身上。這時候總有一句話可以支撐著我，那就是「你要一直相信你很好」。
第一次聽到這句話時，是在我高中準備學測的時候，班導對我說了「如果妳都相信自己做不到，那妳怎麼可能做得到」，當時的我沒有太大的感受，不相信「相信自己」的力量，雖然很感謝班導的激勵，也帶給我重新振作的力量，然而，我並沒有意識到真正的「相信」是什麼。
直到後來經歷了很多次心靈上的轉化，我明白了「相信」可以改變實相的道理，但我仍然是偶爾假裝相信，偶爾試著相信，偶爾半信半疑。就這樣一邊試驗著、一邊努力的讓生活變得更好。有時候懷疑自己有沒有真的相信自己，有時候又意外的達成了一些自己以為不可能的事，但也很多低落的時候，我一點也不相信自己是一個很棒的人。
直到這陣子，我終於明白無條件的信任是怎麼一回事。那是種在你最難堪、最低落，除了外界不支持你，自己還瘋狂批判自己的時候，還能夠讓你靜下心來支持著你的力量。我淚流滿面的一邊想著自己如何如何很糟糕，一邊又想像自己擁抱著受傷的自己，告訴她：「妳很好、妳很棒。不管妳怎麼想都無所謂，我永遠相信妳，妳做得到」。那是句多麼溫柔又有力量的話語，因為妳無條件的相信我，所以我也開始相信自己了。
在人生這條路上跌跌撞撞的，懷疑你的人很多，讓你懷疑自己的人跟事也很多。沒關係，低落也沒關係，讓你失去了相信自己的力量也沒關係。但不管你相不相信，只要你願意輕聲對自己說一聲「你很好，而且你要一直相信你很好」，也許力量就會重新回到自己身上了。
2. English Story
I have had no creative idea to update “Life in the UK” in recent days, while some ideas has been generated for the new column “Study Abroad” but I need more time to experience those ideas so that I could share with you. Therefore, a new column, that I always wanted to create, “Thoughtful Love” is created now.
“You are good. And you should always believe that you are good.”
There is always a word that help me make through every sorrowful nights. The nights when I criticised myself with tears, thinking about the stress I need to face tomorrow. The nights when I thought of task overload and the life troubles with no solutions. That word is “You should always believe that you are good.”
The first time when I heard of this sentence was in the final year of high school. My teacher told me that “If you don’t believe in yourself on the college entrance exam, how can you do well on it?”. At that time, his word did inspire me a lot and make me pull myself together. But it didn’t make me believe in myself, or the power of “believing in myself”. I didn’t realise what is the true meaning of “Believe”.
With the spiritual growth in these years, I have understood that “Believing can manifest”. But sometimes I just couldn't help being dubious. I doubted whether I can really do it. I made trials for my belief with the goal of improving my life, and it turned out to be that somehow I did something impossible for me. Of course, not every time. Most of the time, I did not believe that I am a good person when I was down.
Not until these days did I finally realise what is unconditional belief. It is a power that always supports you when you are in distress. When not only nobody supports you, but you also critisise yourself like losing your mind, the unconditional belief to yourself still make you calm down and feel supported. I was thinking about how horrible with my face bathed in tears, meanwhile imaging that I am hugging the heartbroken me, telling her “You are good. No matter how you think of yourself, I always believe that you can do it.”. That is such a tender but powerful word. Because you believe me unconditionally, I started to believe myself.
Life is not always smooth. Many people doubt you and many things make you doubt yourself. It’s okay. It’s okay if you feel upset, or if you feel that you lose your own power. Whether you believe or not, only if you are willing to say to yourself “You are good. And you should always believe that you are good.”, you own power will come back to you.
