When you lie

You lie to the stranger at the bar about your age

You lie to your colleague about your rage

You lie to your friends about what you believe

You lie to your boyfriend and don’t leave

You lie to your girlfriend and don’t give

You lie to your mother and don’t forgive

You lie to your father and disconnect

And then you call yourself a liar and accept

Until someone peaks and sees behind closed doors

That you have been lying more and more

and you find yourself crying a sea of shame

Staring at the reflection of a liar

A fearful liar who is only lying to himself

A weakened liar who is only fooling herself

And you realize that lying to yourself is simply stabbing your truth in the heart

You never lie to anyone

You only lie to yourself

You only lie because you have not seen you

Because that morning you missed your beautiful smile that was staring at you in the mirror

That evening you skipped the sound of the beatings of your grand heart

You lied to yourself that you are not good enough, you are not smart enough, beautiful enough, fun enough, energetic enough

You lied to yourself because that evening you let that old thought transport you

To a familiar land of self- pity, where you are the only victim

Where it feels just safe enough, just warm enough

But it’s not home, it was never home

Home is when you swim in your sea of truth

And you see a reflection of love

And you never lie again

Because there is only your beauty to brag about

No one can ever leave you again

Because the only one that can leave you is you

No one can ever lie to you again

Because we are all a reflection of you