October Progress Recap
“The goal isn’t the most important. It’s the type of person you need to become to be able to achieve that goal.”
I know I probably say this every month, but wow, what a blur October has been! I can’t even begin to fathom how much has occurred in this month (also one of the main reasons why I do monthly recaps). It’s crazy to think that I just got back from traveling 2 months ago, because so much has changed — from getting into routines, to open source October bootcamp for the last two weeks, to flying back home to Virginia on the last day of Oct.
I’ve stabilized a lot since last month’s rollercoaster of ups and downs, and have reverted back to my baseline happiness and well-being, if not higher :). This month has been a catharsis of emotions 🎆
High level overview:
- Highlights: I checked off the major scary things on my bucket list 😄. I confronted my fear of public speaking and hosted two workshops at Salon in San Francisco as well as Learning Night in South Bay. I also performed in my dance studio’s showcase and spoke at my alma mater’s online entrepreneurship conference.
- What could’ve been better: Hmm, there’s nothing much that I regret. October was pretty great, not sure if there’s anything I would change. I learned to indulge myself in the things that felt good, and the things that I wanted to do.
- October project: To be honest, I forgot about this monthly project on meeting people as if I loved them already. However, my month did end up to be full expressions of love.
- Major update: I learned to forgive. By recognize that I did similar things to the thing that I resented the person for, as well as realizing that I was in love with the past version of him (I have no idea how he is like now), I was able to let go.
Lessons
On life:
- Once upon a time, someone close to me used to touch flowers all the time, and I wondered why someone would do something so random like that. And now, I can’t help but feel the cool texture of flowers and fuzzy leaves. It’s interesting how impact can be so subconscious at times.
- We create the reality we wish to have. Now I realize how many things I do in a roundabout way to get the result that I want, for example, asking when I already know the answer and not buying things for myself so others can.
- There are values underlying each need and behavior. Sometimes we go about an archaic and ineffective way to meet our values.
On business:
- Capping things off as must do’s in the next 6 months, it automatically creates a sense of excitement and drive and motivation that I feel has been missing in my life.
- For once, not being afraid of and embracing monetary goals. I’ve set a revenue goal for the end of the year to get to where I want to be.
On *relationships:
- A couple of my beliefs (for better or for worse): being perfect is good, I’m not good enough, etc. I realized that for one of my exe’s, I’ve been so hung up on him because he seemed to be so perfect and I wanted to be like that. In a sense, I was looking up to him to fulfill a reality that I wanted.
- I expect others to know my implicit boundaries when I’m too scared to take responsibility for expressing those boundaries. Blame is when we don’t want to take responsibility for ourselves.
- I overestimated my ability to signal what I’m feeling, often times, it’s much more beneficial to have an open conversation around that rather than playing games that may be misunderstood.
*I changed this part from careers to relationships, because there’s a lot of overlaps between business and career, and relationships feel more alive to discuss and explore further 💕
Favorite discovery: The self-authoring program where you delve deep into your past and author your present. I’ve been doing the past authoring an hour each day and every day I’ve had a new discovery or discovered a new pattern!!
Books I’m reading this month:
Next month’s goals:
Before, I had these three things: connective experiences, growthful impact and self-expression as what I wanted to concentrate on. But that doesn’t feel like it’s something that I want to continue pursuing further, so I’m going back to the foundational pillars of my life.
- Writing: guest post on [tbd # of] blogs on career acceleration
- Monthly project: participating in Nanowrimo! (though I’ll be writing 1K words a day instead of 1.6K words)
- Dance: I’m planning to do exercises that maintain my muscles so I don’t lose them 😅
Thanks for reading! This is #16 of my monthly progress reports, as inspired by the One Month Projects program. You can read the previous month’s here :)
