Handful of Memories That Are on Shuffle in My Mind

Why is that my mind is wired to remember events that I now regret, more vividly than the many other pleasant ones?

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I don’t know what babies feel. Do they feel pain, happiness, anxiety? Anything? As an adult I think it is a shame if we cannot recreate these feeling at any point in our lives. To sit on an old wooden chair and reminisce about past events feels like an enjoyable activity to do when you are an adult. I cannot remember anything from when I was a baby. When I look at a baby now, I cannot say what the baby is thinking. The baby cannot speak either. If I take a baby to the doctor for getting a vaccine, I know the baby will cry when he or she gets jabbed. But what happens to that pain? Is it even worth it if that feeling is not recorded anywhere? I believe that the time period when we were a baby does not matter. It is a void and nothing that people say about us from when we were a baby makes sense to us. It is unimaginable.

But I feel bad that I cannot remember everything else from the time memories really start making any sense. I can vaguely remember a scene from pre-school. I was in the nursery and I think, not hundred percent sure, that it was Miss Reena looking after us. But that is it. I cannot remember anything else. But I can feel it. I can…