Not all Funny is Funny

In 8th grade, my teacher took me outside the classroom and told me, “Ryan you are always trying to be funny and you laugh too much. There is nothing wrong with that, but I do not need this in my class.”

Whether I was actually funny or probably just being really really annoying, throughout grade school I always felt like I would try a little too hard to make people laugh and take matters as a joke.

Humor is a strange thing. I see it as a shield, almost a mask. Getting others to laugh is almost therapeutic, and also a way of shielding from life’s lows in order to feel content. People use humor as a means of blocking up sensitive topics, or to express in a light manner what is actually truth about their lives. People use humor to completely hide another side of themselves, a side that may feel low and empty. Psychological studies have shown that to the brain, making others laugh is comparable to a fast-acting, addictive drug.

To this day, I feel like there is this innate instinct in me to repel with humor. Sometimes, I try to make jokes in the most inappropriate situations and most of my attempts at humor probably make me come off as a genuinely extremely irritating and annoying person. The joke is on me.

In junior year of High School, looking at a DUI ticket I had found lying on the ground in my house, my teacher spotted me in the hallway. She stopped walking, looked at me closely and asked me if everything was OK. “Everything is fine, I’m fine,” I said, breaking a goofy grin. She laughed and walked away.

These posts are drawn from and are written to reflect upon my own experiences and viewpoints only. By no means am I trying to persuade or prove a point to the world or general public.