What I learned after I got to United States
“Since now we are not around you, you need to be careful and strong enough to deal with problems by yourself” said by my grandma four years ago on my new host family’s car and she was ready to leave me. She went with my grandpa and my mom catching up the flight back to China and I was left alone with several strangers who was going to be the person I live with for the rest of my school year. I cried for about a week because I was only 15 years old during that time and I was all alone chasing for the dream called “independence”.
Before I got to the United States, I thought I would be very happy because I felt that my family is always supervises me for everything I do and I want to change that. Nevertheless, when I truly got away from them, I felt so lonely and scared about the future I am going to have. I missed them so much because the pills were right next to me when I got cold, a cup of water was in front of me every day when I woke up, and my room was always tidy even though I throwed my clothes off every afternoon when I got home from school, yet life didn’t like that anymore when I was in U.S. because my family is no longer taking care of me. I realized that everything is on me. I need to get pills myself when I’m sick. I would wash fruits myself if I’m hungry. And I need to do laundry myself every weekend otherwise I don’t have clothes to wear for the following week. What’s more, I would contact teachers myself if I got questions and I am the one seeking activities that would help my applications for college later. I learnt how to transfer schools and move into a new place all by myself without others’ help. I started become “strong” inside to face any obstacles I met.
I don’t feel panic anymore if any problems come to me. I would solve it myself using the resources I have, and most important, I am no longer asking my parents for help if I am capable of dealing with it. Four years of school lifes in U.S. helped me improve from a little girl who knows nothing but asking help from parents to a matured adult.
