Inadequate
Day 2 of Rehab
Read Day 1
Prompt. What do I feel is inadequate about myself?
This is what they ask in “Process Group” on my day 2.
Inadequate
Bad about myself
Too weak to avoid a pill
Too busy to stop and sit still
Don’t have time to whine
Still need to be on-time
Still need to be kind
Still need to be on
For clients and kids and friends
Swan song
Inadequate
Not good enough to do it on my own
Numb the idea of a lifeline
But ugh, now I’ve run out of time
Because I’m OVER IT!
I’m making it happen, I am NOT going to sit
In shit
Anymore
Out the door
After BE-ing
Stuck
Don’t go back
Allow the withdrawals to attack
Feel it all
Side effects of a waterfall
Don’t want to be sick
Now I need to allow
All the feelings to stick
Humbly on my knees
Please dear body and mind
Don’t be a dick
Following the signs
Affirmations I see
The messages that reach me
Took every action to work through ever fear
To fiercely trust, to get me here
Humbly on my knees
Thank you Goddess!
Full of cheer
I made it here
What do I feel is inadequate about myself?
Weak?
Surely not
Self-worth
Self-love
God above
Goddess within
I will beat this
I begin
I’m in this to win
Written 1/25/18
Day 2 of 7
