Blocked
i could see it coming
slowly, the awareness grew;
entropy had won,
‘twas sundering time;
the rupture was sudden;
before the sonic boom
of your departure
had reached my ears,
you were lost to sight;
goodbye, wait,
let’s try again —
all permutations
of that inmiscible medley
of us and our broken love,
coagulated in my vocal cords,
u n s a i d;
i raised my dependable walls,
barbed, booby-trapped them,
but my emotions,
tortured into monsters,
dug out chunks,
screamed rage,
berated injustice,
profused bouquets
of poisoned vengeance;
i fought them with carbs,
i swayed them with sugar,
i drowned them with spice,
but nothing melted
the block in my throat;
congealed mess
sent creepers
winding down
nerves;
dulling, slowing;
each synapse
talked in treacle;
embogged
blocked
corpus
id
ego
nothing
© Indira Reddy 2021
