The Blank Canvas Effect
I have a fear of starting things.
I use the term “Blank Canvas Effect” due to the fact that when I went to art school some projects would take me FOREVER to start simply because the canvas was blank. What if I messed it up? What if I ended up ruining it?
Growing up I was filled with this fear too. I have so many gifts that I refused to open simply because I wanted to save it for a special occasion. There had to be a specific reason why I was using my fun art tools; it couldn’t just be any old day. And I definitely couldn’t let someone else use it before me.
I really wish this was something I grew out of.
Even with this project I am having a hard time getting up off the ground. I don’t want to dye the fabric because I fear it coming out wrong and it being ruined. And I can’t cut the fabric because what if there is a miss cut and I need to toss that cut? As I am writing this it feels like a very silly reason to prolong the beginning of something, but here I am.
