Yesterday I Didn’t Fear Corona But Today It’s All Over Me
A short essay
I had been ignoring *Corona* since the time it was trending, spreading, killing and creating panic all around the globe. I don’t lie when I say, “I didn’t fear corona”. Trust me. I didn’t. Because I felt as though me, my family and all my dear ones whom I love, whom I have a close bond with are immune to it.
*We are safe* Thought was strongly rooted in my mind.
Please! Don’t judge me. I was not selfish but I was just greatly hopeful.
I was as normal as I was before Corona breakdown — neither I took extra care for hygiene nor I mentioned it to my four-year-old daughter. I just sent her school without any fear, even I didn’t train her toward taking any extra measures for safety and hygiene. I had been like this even after hearing the breaking news that Corona had reached my region.
I am living in the same world where others are being attacked by this deadly virus for that matter even by poverty, riots, and wars that kill so many fellow humans. Yet nothing inculcated fear in my mind.
But not that I was being inhuman or not caring for my fellow brothers and sisters of humanity. I in-fact increased the quality and quantity of my prayers, supplicated while in prostration to my creator to send the cure for this deadly virus and to protect everyone who is inflicted at the earliest. I prayed as much I prayed for the Delhi riots in India to stop or poverty to be uprooted from this world and humanity to prevail over wars and destruction.
This was all until yesterday…
Today —
Corona won. It defeated my hope. Now my hopefulness seems to be a frail puppet held in place by a single, thin, fraying string.
Today —
Corona was successful in stimulating amygdala of my brain.
Bad news sells because the amygdala is always looking for something to fear
— Peter Diamandis
Wonder how?
Today, as I dialed the phone to talk to my husband, I heard continuous coughing over the phone. Reflexively panic set in — dizziness, palpitations, sweating, shaking and confusion all at once.
What’s wrong? Corona? How?When?Why? I suddenly became paranoid that Corona is everywhere and it has attacked my husband. OMG, how about my girl?
Thankfully, my thoughts lasted only for a few seconds when the coughing was soon followed by the mechanical voice of a female warning about the Corona Virus and creating awareness as ordered by the Health Ministry of India.
I took a deep sigh in great relief!
But that first few seconds of coughing was sufficient enough to stimulate my amygdala.
Corona finally hit home.
