Confession
I unmasked a face of love to a closed door
I must have mistaken our late-night talks
for you telling me
you were tired
of loving in the dark
Today
I banged and called out
You heard me loud and clear
yet you acted just like the rest
when I ask them to give as much as they receive
Today
I received no answer
This is not new to me
I am used to men
who leave
when they realize
I am not broken enough
to hand myself to them in pieces
anymore
I know how men like you think
They hate a whole woman
who they cannot pick apart
and choose their favorite pieces of
while leaving the rest of them behind
You know
the demanding kind
The type that asks for too much
as if you tolerating her presence is not enough
Today
Reminds me of every other day that I said too much
That I took up space unauthorized
That I overflowed
Today
The old me showed up in my place
And begged you to see her as someone beautiful
And when I saw this
I cried
I realize
today
has happened before
The familiar prayer for love comes to the forefront of my mind
but instead of reciting it the way I always would
I decided to replace it with someone new
I say to the sky
That tomorrow will be a new day
That today was just a storm to weather
That this is my last day being swept away
Into the place
Of wanting to hand my heart through a closed-door
