Who Am I?
This is the ongoing journal of my personal awakening. Through up to date and un-edited realness, I hope to help you walk through your own awakening with more balance, love and ease.
Who am I to call myself an artist? Who am I to call myself a healer? Who am I?
Where do all these questions in my head come from? Why do I always compare myself to everyone else? Why do I doubt? Where does this deep rooted questioning come from that picks everything apart…to break it down to its comprising parts?
Actually that isn’t so bad — the part of me that wants to understand how things fit together. Just because I break it down in my head doesn’t mean it has to stay that way. Who is to say I’m not breaking it down so it can be put together in a new way? A new paradigm. A new way of doing things.
But before the new way comes…the disassembling. And it feels scary to disassemble all the parts that are carefully balanced on one another. Because what if I can’t get them to go back neatly? But what if that’s not the point? What if it isn’t supposed to be neat? What if things can go together in thousands of different ways and it’s messy?
That scares me and at the same time I know that’s where the beauty lies…in the thousands of ways. That I can do it differently every day and don’t ever have to repeat, and still I won’t run out. And yet the question deep down is, what if I do run out?
Julia Coplan, an intuitive artist, uses dance, photography and writing to get unstuck from mental chatter and allow creativity to flow through.
